I really just need to shut myself off fro. We tend to get intangled insdie our worldy world even know how to live just with ourselfs. I know I camt just live with myself. I need (well that’s a bad way to that but it jusy came out that why so it must be what I’m feeling.) matierl things, just to like myself. what does thatg make me?
I crave for attention for feelings and relationship that Ilong for. relationships and closeness that I desire. What does this say about me is that I can’t vslue myself just how I am I need people to do it for me. this makes these people tpxic and when I’m hurt by one or maybe I go sesrching for crazy thingd and k lose control of thi gs I don’t wanna be apart of that lifestyle. Thats why I always come running back to them. I look for what I wnat j all the wrong places settling for way to much.
How do you even go about feeling and mending yourself when the one you truly loves isn’t even attracted to you. Doesnt even wanna be with your gender.